in need of a miracle

Ok before my husband and I were married he told me he had never been in love before. He went to a therapist to find out. They said it was related to his mother dying at a young age & he was close to her. He said it didn’t help.  He was in a dark place where satan had a grip on him. I surrendered him to God & moved out of state. I did a 37 day fast praying if this was the husband for me then make it clear.  God kept laying him on my heart everyday even though I begged him to remove him from my thoughts. I will only take him back if he comes up here and marries me and I know that’s impossible because he wants nothing to do with me. 37 days he started contact with me. His heart had changed. He said he was in love with me and wanted to get married.  So we did.  A few months into the marriage and we got into a discussion where he said he thought maybe he was lonely and that’s why he married me. He said he missed me, he loves being with me and I am perfect for him in every sense but it’s love not in love. It hurt deeply. I didn’t want to give up so I said are you happy being married to me. He said of course so we decided to stay married and give it to God. Well months later he went to add me to his medical Ins.  He needed proof of divorce decree from last marriage. He called the court house and found out ex did not follow up after the papers were served. She didn’t know there was more to than just having papers served. So in August it will be final because he refiled. I read two sites. One says accidental bigamy will let your marriage be valid once the divorce is final, the other one says null & void. Now I have two things to be concerned. God recently took my husbands 15 year job away and it brought my husband closer to the Lord and his family. I am so grateful. God placed my husband last week in a better job! My husband thinks it’s unfair and feels guilty staying in a relationship where he isn’t in love. he said he married his best friend. We are going to our Pastor for counselling Tuesday evening. I am on my 8th day of the Daniel Fast. I am praying for direction. What do I do? I am so confused and hurting so much with this. I feel why would God put me through all this. bring this man into my life to marry and then find out we may not be married and him not being in love. I know this is all satan. I just need some prayer warriors and Gods wisdom to be with my Pastor tomorrow! Thank you….Debbie

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